I got offered a job on a temporary basis. I meet with the staffing agency Monday. Which means more days to WAIT. I’m so sick of fucking waiting. The staffing agency will run a background check, which is what is giving me anxiety. I just know they’re gonna take it back once they see my arrest on there AND the bankruptcy. Not to mention how I left my last job. I’m such a fuck up. Seriously why even try? I feel like this is all just leading up to the inevitable: me being unemployed. I cant relax. I cant be happy. Why is cyanide so hard to get ahold of?